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 Dear God, May all the tears I cry, and all the tears I have not cried but hold within, pour forth into Your hands. Please take each painful thought and unhealed wound, and send angels here to me. I long for peace. Amen. The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever..  
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hmm hmm hmm today is yet another day to waste away.... but i wasted it away wif fun.... hehe.... wif my dear teddy.... hee.... nvr been happier.... oh well... today, i went to the hospital to get some forms signed, and get my uniform.... ooh i look gd in those unis.... hehe.... bleahz... nice floral patterns and great cut.... hmmm the shoes are nice too.... nice design... hee... so anyway, i also had to get some medical check-up done... so off i went to the walk-in clinic, ware i did a blood test and checked my wt and ht and my eyesight... and also to see the doc.... after tat, i had to go down to the tuberculosis control unit for a chest x-ray.... but i only got to those 2 places after 2pm cos they closed for lunch.... so after my unis were done, my teddy and i went for lunch.... we lunched at KFC.... had the buddy meal.... yum yum... after which we walked ard cos still had 3omins left before the clinic opens.... went into the pet store ware i bot a hamster leash... cool huh.... hee my hammie hates it... but the lil ones enjoy walking ard the balcony wif it.... hehe so fun... anyway, since it was raining, and the TCU is along the main road, we had to use an umby.... tat walk was sweet... he said it was romantic... well, u're rite dear... it was... hee... hugs at the TCU, when i went in to the xray rm, the radiologist was aslp.... he was an old indian man, ard 65+..... i startled him and i did apologise hee.... so he welcomed me in and instructed me to remove my bra and stand at the xray board.... so i did as told and after a few mins, i was done.... and he told me to wait awhile outside and after a few mins, he said it was ok to go back now.... all is clear... hee.... cool.... so after all were done, we headed down to town for a game of "killing".... hehe.... CS.... cool game... i enjoyed "killing" him.... as much as he did "killing" me too... haa.... we played for about an hour or two.... den went down to the supermarket... cos i had to get fresh chickens for mom.... but in the end didn't buy cos mum said too ex... so ok... we walked ard a bit den headed for home... but i had to head down to cuz jeffrey's place first to get bro's travelling bag.... see, bro is going to Ipoh tmr for a track n field meet.... so i had to be the one to get it.... oh well... den teddy sent me all the way to the place.... i had wanted him to head back and jus leave me at the mrt.... cos he was tired.... but he wanted me to be safe so there u have it.... hmmm once we got to the stop, we parted at the bus stop and i headed to the blk.... it took me only 6mins to get the bag and head home.... once i got home, i was dead beat.... my back hurts a lil.... oh well it happens when period comes.... anyway, i had a great day.... and i'm happy tat teddy shared it wif me... hee... now all i need is to rest on my bed.... ahhh.....
the wise one told me...... have u ever felt like u are invaded wif bad and terrible memories, and u dunno wad to do to make them go away??!! well, if u did and still do, here's something i wanna share today..... i have been invaded wif miserable and painful memories... it comes to haunt when i least expect it to... and it lingers on for a long time after tat... last nite, it attacked me again.... due to some reason.... its personal so i wun say it here.... i was on the phone when i broke down.... when i spilled it all out.... tat too after much persuading.... after much scolding.... when i finally opened up, i burst into tears.... i didn't know wad to do... so this special and wise person said to me.... y not i try to think of happy moments when this tot attacks....!!?! if i tink happy, the painful memories will go away.... and dun only think of the happy times when the bad memories comes.... tink of it all the time.... tat way, not only will the bad memories go, i will be happier too.... so here i am today, feeling happier.... tanx to my wise teddy.... all day, i engaged myself in putting my childhood pics together..... into a precious moments album, which i bot..... so now its complete... tho i know i still have more pics somewhere in the store room.... hehe.... anyway, tink happy and u'll be happy too.... special tanx to God, for allowing me to speak to Him and rest my worries.... last but not least, i'd like to tank dearest teddy for last nite.... tanx for keeping me company, tanx for putting sense into my head..... muahz.... tanx a lot....
haiz.... so sad... while walking to the shop to get something earlier on, i noticed this group of teenagers talking under my block... i overheard their conversation.... there were 3 gals and 2 guys... the guys were criticising one gal bout her looks.... saying she looked like porky pig.... jus cos she's got fats and her mouth pouts out... in a way, looking like a pig.... the guys were going on and on.... the sad part is tat instead of defending their fren, the gals were also telling her tat she should go for slimming and plastic surgery.... haiz.... and cos i was checking my letterbox, i saw the poor gal stomp off.... she was wet-faced... soon later, her gal pals were scolding the guys for talking bout her like tat.... wads the use?? u joined in the fun.... haiz.... den they went off to find her.... ppl!!! after making a gal feel so miserable, they coax her.... i wun be surprised if tat gal refuses to speak to them.... but then again, if she doesn't they mite call her a petty bitch.... so she'll feel more miserable den.... haiz.... y get ppl to feel down upon themselves...??? i find tat gal to be pretty.... she's got this sweet look.... i've seen her ard every now and den.... some frens she has..... i jus dun like ppl who bring their frens down... i always make it a point to look deep into a person.... which is y ppl sometimes say i have no taste in finding a pretty or handsome person.... to me, all is beautiful.... thin, fat, ugly, black........ all is pretty.... rem tat.... dun judge ppl until u judge urself.... to me, the frens of tat gal are ugly.... cos they made her so miserable.... haiz.... they're only making tat gal depressed.... u'll nvr know if she's gonna binge or starve to death now.... such ppl should look into the mirror before talking bout frens or others.... wads the use in having a pretty or handsome person ard u when all u ever do is diss others who look ugly to u....??? haiz...
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